I get it now.

Even though I've had several, I've never felt the need to start a blog weigh as heavily as today.
I understand now. Why do I want one? Because I'm lonesome in a new place and I can't figure out what kind of creature I am at this moment.

I need to write it out, you see.

ego stroking? desperation? perhaps.

more like English Major's Delight ...

A few things for firsts.
1) I love this town, for all sorts of reasons.
Like.... this amazing wonderland is really close to my house, and to be a lifelong member its only $90 (refundable at any time you want).

2) I have lost the ability to drive well, and it makes me nervous.
As long as I don't turn up on T.V. for the "worst drivers ever" show, I'll be ok.

3) My apartment is straight out of Twin Peaks. lots of wood paneling
and the owls... well, they're here. I'll be putting up pictures soon.

4) Teekl is the best best best cat in the entire world. Except when he takes all the toilet paper off the roll. tomorrow I may try to get him to walk w/ the harness. we'll see how that goes.


so things are great.
I just watched the FALCORPS DVDs, both of them, and managed not to cry about it.
I laughed a lot though, in a nice way.

however.... I feel incredibly weird. I feel like I'm asleep, and that I'm dreaming, and that my dream is the life I'm living right now, the life of another person.
I have no idea what this other person is doing.... I feel like Tony Soprano when he's in a coma and he's living the life of that "Kevin" person. Only there's not a "light" far off in the distance...

I don't feel sad, but I do feel disassociated. I just haven't a clue as to what it's all about right now... and my legs are still messed up. Damn chiggers or whatever the hell has cursed me, but I'm too distracted to worry about it.

that's all for now.